He's Right. We're Right.

Something Zafir and I discussed some time ago. Here is what I said:

"I can tell you that you don't have to be in a relationship to be in or give love. A relationship is more of like a commitment. If you're not ready to commit, don't. Cause you're gonna screw it all up. Just like I did before. You gotta stop and think it through. Cause we, or I, didn't. Good to learn form mistakes. I guess every part of this makes you a tad wiser each time. Yeaaaah..... :)"



"So much for strategic planning... Sometimes I wish I never had great ambitions or planned my life for the future... Cause it gives me no room for error. Its too restrictive. It could and WOULD affect others too. I mean just because of my 'long term plans' so called, others get restricted by it. I don't want you to get restricted by it. Like what the last post said, no commitments. Just enjoy each other together. Fullstop.



Yes. We're still young. And its foolish to think of something years away. Now THAT's what you call rushing."

And here is Zafir from http://drasticmeasuresonhold.blogspot.com/ This is what he has to say:

"Zafir here,



And I would like to share my views on commitment, at our age (like teenagers). Like, commitments to each other kind of commitment.


According to Dictionary.com, a reliable dictionary website, the definition of commitment is a pledge, or a promise, an obligation. So it sounds like when you commit yourself to someone, you have to be there for that person no matter what. Seems like your freedom is gone, and you're under a leash. Or trapped in a cage.
I hear lots of couples our age, complaining and breaking up because they can't commit themselves to each other. Well OBVIOUSLY at our age you can't commit yourself to anyone yet. Then why talk about all these commitment nonsense. Some of us can't even commit ourselves to studies, *ahem*, let alone their boy/girlfriends.
I'm not against dating and getting attached at our age, (I myself had a few, and still interested in being in one). But isn't knowing that both of you like each other enough? Like, (from guys point of view) meet up with her, spend time with her, and look forward to your next meeting with her. Not like, be with her 24/7. Wouldn't that be boring? Give her space too, for her own life, for her friends.

Commitment is like you're owning each other's life, you can control them, you expect them to be there for you no matter what. I don't think we can do that at our age right now."
 
I've got other thoughts about being there 24/7 kind of thing. I mean I believe that you SHOULD have the ability to be there 24/7. It shows that you are serious and not just PLAYING AROUND (like many jerks and douchebags such as this one guy named Azzz) But if your girl/ guy doesn't like it or need some space, really back off. They just cannot handle it. Its like you might be ready to live with your love but they might not. Sometimes, it takes more time for them to settle down. Some of us were just born to adapt to situations.

Think it through. However, certain things are not meant to be thought out. I believe the moment you have to decide or choose, it shows that you have doubts. Its like "do I want to be with *insert name here*?" This is a dangerous question. You cannot treat this kind of question like a mathe question. The answer must surface by itself.

What do you guys think? Leave a comment y'all!

*edit : Ok not really 24/7 but more like prepared to spend as much time with her as possible. I have that luxury of time so I can do it without impacting my daily life. Thats me. Adaptive Akid.

BE. AFRAID

Not me... No... Yes. I'm talking to you you ponitianks, pochong or what ever shit... Really, get the fuck away from me or i'll just fuck you up. How'd ya like to feel some burning sensation from hell? Don't think so.

Ok the reason why I'm saying this is that, yesterday night (friday night to saturday morning) Zac, Keith, Crazyman and I went out for a night cycling. And it was a real bad one. As we went out, I first happened to 'see' something (but hey I didn't really give a damn about it so I was like "whatever") so we left for East Coast Park. While we were cycling, some of our torch lights for some reason began to fail. Mine started giving way for no reason ALTHOUGH I HAD NEW BATTS IN THEM. To make matters worse, some of the paths had no lights at all. Also, some of them WENT OUT as we approached them! Creepy shit.

Soon Zac had bad feelings and started to feel unwell. Shi Yang and Keith were also apparently disturbed by something... The whole time I couldn't feel anything. That's when I stared into the woods and said "WHOEVER IT IS, FUCK OFF".

Soon later, Keith had an accident on his bike. It was bad enough to destroy the tire so we had to carry the bike back as the breaks were in an engage position. Keith's shoes too fell apart. And we took hours to WALK back. From then on they said it was still following us... All the way back to my place.

Fortunately my mom said that thing didn't come in. So thats good. Through all the stuff that happened, its just funny to me that, I don't really feel all that afraid or scared. I don't know why. I mean seriously like zilch of any emotions except to console my friends who felt disturbed...

Lighter Note

For a lack of words, I've got this:

Really? You don't even try to run to check your mobile? If you did, don't you bother to reply? If you made a list of the things you cared about in your life, I actually wonder if I'm at the top of it... Oh no no no no... Am I even IN IT?

I Start Questioning Myself....

Ok so here I am looking out for my phone like a million times every day. You know for what reason. You know what, is it me that I care too much? Because I think I do... I think too much... I actually feel an invisible force attempting to repel me away. Oh no not repelling me away, more of like shoving me aside. Am I a toy? I am NOT a DISPOSABLE AKID. Put it this way, am I worth the trouble? I am guessing not...

I wonder what you're thinking about now really.

MAC DONALDS!!!

Thanks Macs for having computers for us to use! XD HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Yes. Guess where I am? Zack's with me :)

Hands Off Merchandise

Ok why hide? None of you would get this unless you know it for yourself. Ok whatever... But seriously, why keep your hands in your pocket? Its something that you have never done before. Habit ruled out...

Today I went out with Zafir to help him search for some tech stuff at the one and only Sim Lim Square. So we basically scouted around the whole place for the few things below:

-Graphics Card
-Gaming Headset (that Zafir actually wants to use as headphones)
-Hard Disk
-Games (completely Zafir)

Of the above, the most outstanding things I found was that my graphics card, the well known and used, Nvidia N8800GT 512M DDR3 costs only $109!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!! SCAMMED!
Ok about 3 years ago, when I bought the baby, it cost me a whopping $419! Sigh... When price drops turns against you.... Sucks

Besides the above shitness, Zafir wanted to buy a set of gaming headset known as the Steel Series Siberian (or something like that). At first I thought it was like some music headphones/set. Turned out I was wrong. Like many typical gaming headsets, the thing was GIGANTIC. Well that's okay... BUT NOT if you wanna use it as a portable headphone. Come on it's ridiculous!

But hey thats my opinion. Sorry Zafir. (i don't hate it, i just think that using it that way is silly)

Oh and you can still buy that Koss Porta Pros. Its compact and its good. Not to mention cheap : )

So later on we went to Novena to eat with Izyan, who had a really bad day. How I wish I could have done something to cheer her up.... Anyways, the two of em. Both born on the 25th of Jan 1993. And. Following the laws of Magnetism. Like poles repel. They both seriously love to bash each other...

Break down:
-Zafir starts fight
-Izyan makes great comeback
-Zafir rebuts (fails. You don't suck but its just gay sometimes Lol. Haha love you bro)
-Izyan clench fist. Threathens to punch.
-Zafir uses cute smile.

I simply just sit there. I love how my friends get along. I just love it when I see them play around. Hahahahahaha! Round 2 ok? XD

Sometime later, the some Standard Chartered lady called to try sell us information on some loan scheme. I'm a professional at telling them to go rack themself.... Piece of cake. The two of them I think were a little more afraid than usual... haha

I'm gonna end off with this: A gentleman sends his lady home, thus holds responsibility to safe guard the protection of his dear maiden. Something tells me that I shouldn't do it anymore....

Hypocritical... Or just stressed?

A couple of hours ago, I was in absolute panic. My mom and dad would know why. I think Izyan sure knows a little of it too (but she understands it a hell lot). Guys, I can't hide the truth:

MY DREAMS MAY NOT COME TRUE

My dad discussed with me on moving overseas to accomplish my life long dream of being a pilot. Singapore isn't the right place for someone special like me to pursue in a career path.

So much for strategic planning... Sometimes I wish I never had great ambitions or planned my life for the future... Cause it gives me no room for error. Its too restrictive. It could and WOULD affect others too. I mean just because of my 'long term plans' so called, others get restricted by it. I don't want you to get restricted by it. Like what the last post said, no commitments. Just enjoy each other together. Fullstop.

Yes. We're still young. And its foolish to think of something years away. Now THAT's what you call rushing. AND IT HAS TO STOP. Akid, don't be sooo naive....

However, with great ambitions, the will to achieve is put to the test. Am I a quitter? NO

*update* had a chat with Zafir sharing our problems and some other cool convos... Feel a lot better now. Thanks bro